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whos out there w/ding with me?
8 days clean off of methadone 105mg tapered down to 45mg...went thru the first 5days in a detox.(thats all they could hold me for) last 2 days they gave me 4 doses of subutex 4mg 4mg 2mg 2mg then said ur good to go RIIIGGHHT. the first day out i felt ok then the next morning I felt pretty good, and then it crept up on me like a assassin. first the anxiety and heart pounding then the aches of bones and joints. there was a point it was so bad i forced myself to sit still and accept the pain just kinda welcomed it in my body then my feet kinda just went numb with a vibrating sensation. lasted about 15mins then had to get up and walk around. and oh my the head games are worse than i ever thought its like my brain is so fing confused and i have no control over it, i get really angry sometimes like i wish this disease could manifest itself in a physical form so i can beat the **** out of it. but all in all im doing ok 8days in and running the road of recovery never to look back at the drugs chasing me. MH and the people here have givin me so much support and kindness it has really helped me a lot so i just wanted to try and give some back. keep posting for support. together we can beat this, KEEPING THE FAITH.......
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My first 6 months off methadone, I wished I was in a rehab or some safe environment where my only responsibility was to work my aftercare. I think this is a great idea. I felt horrible ignoring my family to go to meetings daily, going to therapy, working out, my whole life was recovery. My wife even expressed some jealousy of my new friends, I was spending more time with recovery people than her. Jump in with both feet and never look back.
woa thanks u guys....u all amaze me on how giving ur.....but I am leaving tomorrow am so this is truly ma last post until I can get my phone or onn a comp at the rehab....can u believe that they serve lobster and steak and freshed bake cookies twice a day=))) I am day 12 and my symptoms are just restlessness and heartpounding,and the energy crash is really hard...I was glad to see my son today before I left he was gone for the summer and came back taller than me....he is 14 and me and ma wife have raised a fine young man he starts high school this year..***** ill be gone until January....and my precious lil daughter turns 11 tomorrow at 7:14am.....idk if ill miss the holidays with them,man how did I screw up so bably......but I still havae a good 3 or 4 years with my son...when he is going to need me the most. I called my old boss today and made amends with him that was empowering he said its about time and ill be waiting for u to come back in 6months...(FISTPUMP)...my last day with my familyof 4 well 6 including my 2 dogs (poodle and a boxer)...ahhh this is to much but I know in the end it will be good again...im going to dedicate the rest of my life to stay happy and humble in a life of sobriety, there is no buzz out there that is worth losing what I hold most precious to me and that is the joy of my life...my family. For today I am 12 proud days in and am so happy to see all the others out there with me who are taking back their lives. I really do appreciate you guys....keep on doing what you guys do.....ill post as soon as I can.....take care and will see u in a life of sobriety....Josh......@€-------
IMPOSSIBLE to wear out your welcome. some of us are right behind you and often watch for updates so we can get an idea of what is to come. your post will help many, many people for years to come.
CONGRATS on 12 DAYS!!! You're going in the right direction.
Please know that you could NEVER wear out your welcome around here. If we have been the gasoline for your tank.....and you seem to be running low....just try to fill up at a "different gas station"...LOL The more you reach out....the more will come back to you. I LOVE that about recovery!!
When do you leave for the 6 mo rehab? I'm REALLY glad you are doing this for yourself.....it will bless your life in more ways than you can imagine...though it requires such a huge sacrifice to do it.
Please know that you could NEVER wear out your welcome around here. If we have been the gasoline for your tank.....and you seem to be running low....just try to fill up at a "different gas station"...LOL The more you reach out....the more will come back to you. I LOVE that about recovery!!
When do you leave for the 6 mo rehab? I'm REALLY glad you are doing this for yourself.....it will bless your life in more ways than you can imagine...though it requires such a huge sacrifice to do it.
Hello, I'm with you...I jumped off the methadone train also-Thursday morning, 8am was my last dose. I tried to taper and did it too quickly, I think, but now I'm on day 4 and just want to freaking sleep! I don't though, I lay there and twitch...I tried clonidine for the first time today and it really really is helping. I want to run, but my body disagrees with my mind...just want to say hey, you're not alone and it helps me knowing you are kicking a$$ too! Thanks for sharing your story!
Still with ya. I'm at 10 days clean but got myself dehydrated so i telt like wD all over again. A tad better today. Kinda depressed and overwhelmed but I'm in aftercare so I think I'm where I'm supposed to be. Xoxox
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