32 weeks pregnant and this has got to be the end

[NeedsToStop8]

I have been taking pain pills for about 5 years now. A 7.5 would get me high for about a year or 2 and then when I met my husband it got worse. He liked taking them on the weekends, just for fun just like I was doing. We had a great hook up so they were always available. We would take hydro or percocet 10's on the weekends and then none throughout the week. Of course it got worse and then we were on to taking them ALL the time. The money we spend on these things are ridiculous. I found out I was pregnant in June 2011. I stop taking them for a week because I was so high off the fact we were having a baby and didnt want to do anything to hurt it. We decided to get 4 perc 10's one night and then never take them again. He had 2 I had 2. Well that started the roller coaster back over. Since I have had a healthy pregnancy and the baby is growing exactly like he is suppose to (he is actually measuring a week bigger than he is suppose to be) it made me feel like it was OK and the baby wasn't being affected by all of this. I know I shouldnt be taking pain pills and  the only problem I have found is risking the baby being addicted and going thru withdrawal once it is born. I want to stop my last 8 weeks to ensure baby be born pain free. Today is my first day without a pill. My doctors have no clue I take these pills. I go to all my appts and everythings is always great. I have had a 4d ultrasound and he is the prettiest little boy EVER. His heart, kidneys, all his organs are perfect via ultrasound. I just know this has to be the end of it all. I can't take anymore. I have tried my whole pregnancy to quit and never made it past day 1. My husband and I have talked and we are doing this together. We know in order to have a healthy baby this can not go on! I have been taking up to 30mg of hydro's or percs a day. Whichever we had. I take 15 mg at a time mostly a dose in the morning and a dose at night. Some days 45mgs but that is only like once a week. I do chew the pills when I take them to get a faster high. This is the first time I have admitted this and I feel terrible just writing it. I feel like I can't get up in the mornings without a pill just to clean, cook, play with my daughter or even have a good day. I have went maybe 2 days without a pill through my whole pregnancy and I do have withdrawals but I dont think they are as bad as most go through. I think mine is more mental and that is where my problem is. The physical is not great tho, I dont want to do anything, even be nice! And of course I am the sweetest person EVER when im high. No one knows about this besides my husband. I just need to STOP and I am so scared of not getting high anymore!!!!! I dont need preaching on withdrawals and pre term labor, or that I need to talk to my doctor. I am no doing that. I have tried weening myself off by cutting down the mgs everyday and I always do good until I am about done and then I just give up and do 15mgs again. I have to quit cold turkey there is no other way, I just need support, someone that was in my shoes. I hate these things, they consume my life, I live around them and this has to be the end...it has to be!!!!!!

[newmamaneedsanswers81]

Hello

[elizabe89304]

How did everything turn out? praying for a healthy family and you guys are all okay!

[tay1994]

I was just wondering  I'm going thru what u did , did ur baby turn out okay? & did social services get involved?

[helpfornewmom37]

We are in the same boat my friend. I'm currently quitting methadone after trying my whole pregnancy and I won't tell my doctor cause I don't want my baby to token away from me and my family finding out. I understand you. I'm 3 days clean as of now and its hard but I want to give my baby a chance and theres nothing I can do about the things I've done. Have you had your baby yet? Can you tell me how this went for you. I'm looking for answers as well.

[kmp79]

lol i jus realized how old this thread was .. but it any event hope it helpfull advice ..  i for one was in terrible pain my last pregnancy , but my doc knew & my baby girl was healthly & now is 5 ,.. but since i was able to deal with the pain afta physical therpy b4 this pregnancy i told my soc as soon as i found out & suboxone was a great help , not only did i stop rite away . but havent thought about pills ,, but anywho to all ... if ur in this position the best thing to tell ur doc ,, by lying , ur also lyin to urself & baby .. wen expecting its no longer about u ,,  u have another lil person expectin u to make the rite choices,,,  sumthng to think about ., jus cause baby is born ok ,, doesnt mean drugs cant have a effect later on in life ,. take all this into thought..  im only sayin this cause i noticed  more then one person posting concerns about pills ( drugs) .

[kmp79]

hello ,, i am a mother of 3 & expecting a lil girl in less then 8wks ,. i was on pain pills with my last child thru the whole pregnancy because of chronic back pain due to slip disks ,,, & i was takin them at the begining of this pregnancy , but i was honest & they put me on suboxone which is a tablet that u only need 1 a day & it completely takes away withdrawls & cravings for opiates ,. trust me i didnt even think of pills as soon as i started the new med ,, plus u definiantly wana b honest with ur doc because social service gettin involved is a large risk if baby is addicted ,!  not tryin to preach but if u lie it will def look like ur not fit ,, so juds b honest & talk to ur doc , tell he/she bout ur prob & u want help ,, it will b best for u & baby !!  good luck & hope erythng goes well :-)