32 weeks pregnant and this has got to be the end

[NeedsToStop8]

I have been taking pain pills for about 5 years now. A 7.5 would get me high for about a year or 2 and then when I met my husband it got worse. He liked taking them on the weekends, just for fun just like I was doing. We had a great hook up so they were always available. We would take hydro or percocet 10's on the weekends and then none throughout the week. Of course it got worse and then we were on to taking them ALL the time. The money we spend on these things are ridiculous. I found out I was pregnant in June 2011. I stop taking them for a week because I was so high off the fact we were having a baby and didnt want to do anything to hurt it. We decided to get 4 perc 10's one night and then never take them again. He had 2 I had 2. Well that started the roller coaster back over. Since I have had a healthy pregnancy and the baby is growing exactly like he is suppose to (he is actually measuring a week bigger than he is suppose to be) it made me feel like it was OK and the baby wasn't being affected by all of this. I know I shouldnt be taking pain pills and  the only problem I have found is risking the baby being addicted and going thru withdrawal once it is born. I want to stop my last 8 weeks to ensure baby be born pain free. Today is my first day without a pill. My doctors have no clue I take these pills. I go to all my appts and everythings is always great. I have had a 4d ultrasound and he is the prettiest little boy EVER. His heart, kidneys, all his organs are perfect via ultrasound. I just know this has to be the end of it all. I can't take anymore. I have tried my whole pregnancy to quit and never made it past day 1. My husband and I have talked and we are doing this together. We know in order to have a healthy baby this can not go on! I have been taking up to 30mg of hydro's or percs a day. Whichever we had. I take 15 mg at a time mostly a dose in the morning and a dose at night. Some days 45mgs but that is only like once a week. I do chew the pills when I take them to get a faster high. This is the first time I have admitted this and I feel terrible just writing it. I feel like I can't get up in the mornings without a pill just to clean, cook, play with my daughter or even have a good day. I have went maybe 2 days without a pill through my whole pregnancy and I do have withdrawals but I dont think they are as bad as most go through. I think mine is more mental and that is where my problem is. The physical is not great tho, I dont want to do anything, even be nice! And of course I am the sweetest person EVER when im high. No one knows about this besides my husband. I just need to STOP and I am so scared of not getting high anymore!!!!! I dont need preaching on withdrawals and pre term labor, or that I need to talk to my doctor. I am no doing that. I have tried weening myself off by cutting down the mgs everyday and I always do good until I am about done and then I just give up and do 15mgs again. I have to quit cold turkey there is no other way, I just need support, someone that was in my shoes. I hate these things, they consume my life, I live around them and this has to be the end...it has to be!!!!!!

[nojudgments12]

HEY, I just wanted to say that I have going through this same turmoil. I have been taking pain meds most all of my pregnancy. I have felt horrible and everyday I say it will be the last. I did tell my doctor about taking my husbands pain pills bc my back was hurting so bad. I did not tell him honestly that I had been taking them the whole time and that I had an addiction. So he just thought I took them bc my back hurt and prescribed me my own. Now it has gone on too far.I am due in 5 weeks and am still taking them. Yes the baby is growing above average for his gestational age, the 4d ultrasounds show every organ is perfect and operating perfectly, but in all reality this baby i'm sure is addicted. i hate myself for it and tomorrow my husband and I are telling my dr. I am soo scared of how he will judge me and I know that he will be more than surprised by this. He has always taken the time to sit and talk to me about all kinds of things, even my schooling and gave me counsel on my relationship once when I was crying...he gave me someone to call for couples couseling. He is awesome and I have had plenty opportunity to tell him. Now its at the end of my pregnancy and I wish I hadn't waited. cold turkey is very dangerous. It is too much on the baby. I heard they give mothers suboxone or subutex sometimes instead of keeping them on the pain meds or detoxing them. I am afraid and i have cried many nights bc of the pain meds. I feel horrible and i wish I had gotten help in the begining. I suggest anyone who is in this situation tell their dr. It is best he/she knows so they can be prepared and get you the right help. I see now even though i am very nervous about it, that it is best to do so and it shows you do love and care about the life inside you instead of waiting and letting him be born with withdrawls or preterm labour.

[NeedsToStop8]

Hi all! Had my baby about a week ago. He was 7 days late. Stubborn lil boy! Anyways he was absolutely PERFECT! Scored an 8/9 on Apgars test. Passed hearing and vision tests. He kept his temp well and started eating as soon as he came out! We had his first pediatrition check up this week and his doctor told us that we have a happy healthy little boy and that he is 100% perfect :) I did slip up after I quit taking pills. Actually was taking them the week I went into labor. Took about 30mg twice in 1 week but 2 days apart. Never a sign of withdrawal and we got to leave the hospital as soon as any other mother would! Did not get drug tested I assume. Anyways I am not saying its OK to do what I did, but I am saying if you have a problem, please get help, and dont come on this website and let others try to scare you into doing what they think is right! . Me and baby are both happy and well.

[amanda419]

they only check if there suspious of someone and the blood test come back bad.

[NeedsToStop8]

Doctors today went great. I have 4 weeks left and am not dialated any. He is head down and ready to go tho!!! They think he is approx 5. 1/2 lbs but that was just from feeling from the outside!

[NeedsToStop8]

Thank you! I am now opiate free and well on my way to having a healthy baby boy! Now I gotta work on keeping HIS mommy healthy as well! It will be done! I am determined and with support from others, it will be alot easier!

[dac70]

Welcome...
I am new here as well and I will only say that u will be in my prayers. This is rough on everybody but I could not imagine being in Ur situation. I wish only the best for u..
keep posting and let us know how its going...
Best of luck and prayers sent to you.