Here.....Again!!

[struggling_college_student]

So after about another year and a half of using I finally hit the bottom......again....this time I got all the way up to 240mg or so of oxy a day plus any other meds I could get.  I'm on day 1 right now and feel like caca....why did I do this to myself yet again?? Wasn't the last time reason enough to stay sober?? I just hate that I'm back here and do the whole WD thing and ugghhhh.....but this site always helped during my wd periods.....good luck everyone

[feohmoon]

Yesterday was the worst day for me also.  I did not even post because I could not sit in front of the computer...I do not know how to expain how I felt but it was as if I had severe anxiety/nausea/fluttering in my chest and my throat.  I threw up throughout the majority of the day and was so restless I thought I might jump out of my skin.  It had to be the brink of insanity.  Today is better...the normal withdrawals are back and after yesterday, I can tolerate this.
So glad to here you are doing well.  My fiance and I did our fair share of praying yesterday and I believe that is definately an effective method of combatting these symptoms.  You really are doing great and it helps to know that you are going through this too and getting better every minute.

[struggling_college_student]

So I am now on Day 5 of ct and last night was honestly the worst night of my WD so far.  For the most part my RLS is manageable but last night around 3 AM I just started shaking....like seizure shaking.....I had to just kick my legs fujriously and run around and do jumping jacks.  Nothing would ease the pain.....it was excruciating.....I was sooo scared cuz I had never felt anything like this before.....I got into the shower and just got on my knees and prayed....prayed that god would help me thru this hard time....next thing i know i get out of the shower and fell asleep for about 3 hrs!!  Amazing how he answers prayer......this was the first sleep I had gotten since starting this process!!  Thank you Jesus for being here for us and listening.....the sleep was much needed and now I know I can do this!!  Good luck everyone and God Bless!  

Jeff

[Dav125]

Thats typical..I was getting about the same and if I did sleep for maybe 20 minutes or a half hour, the only way I would know I did was if I had a short dream..Today and possibly tommorrow you should be done with the worst of the physical stuff. The sleep crap will continue though....Just keep counting those days..I can see a big reason in your photo's :)

David

[struggling_college_student]

Well I'm on day 4.....still have only sleep about 1.5 hrs total during all this.....no bueno:-(

[Jaybay]

Congratulations on flushing the booze!  My husband tried the alcohol method of detox too.  It wasn't pretty.  He was just a drunk in detox who still couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, couldn't stop the leg kicking and all the rest of it.  Alcohol just made it all worse, and as you very intelligently realized in time - it made him relapse.  Seriously, I applaud you for listening to that little voice of reason!

[feohmoon]

Good for you...that is liberating.  Besides, you would have felt bad from that tomorrow because our bodies recognize alcohol as just another drug and it would have interfered with your progress.
The lack of sleep is brutal, I am suffering from that as well.  Sleep deprivation makes you feel so rough regardless of whether or not you are withdrawing...then it is 100x as rough.
Stay strong, you are doing awesome.