Here.....Again!!

[struggling_college_student]

So after about another year and a half of using I finally hit the bottom......again....this time I got all the way up to 240mg or so of oxy a day plus any other meds I could get.  I'm on day 1 right now and feel like caca....why did I do this to myself yet again?? Wasn't the last time reason enough to stay sober?? I just hate that I'm back here and do the whole WD thing and ugghhhh.....but this site always helped during my wd periods.....good luck everyone

[feohmoon]

Your story is eerily similar - and I am a struggling college student who is ashamed to be here for a second time. (not that there is anything to be ashamed of) - but pills have impacted my life so severely I wonder how I could continue doing something so destructive, that is not typical of my behavior.  But I am not myself at this time as you are not.  This forum is a great outlet and an excellent source of imformation and support.  
This time will be the last time because we all want control of our lives and we will get there one day at a time.  I never realized the power of that phrase.  Are you using vitamins and supplements and doing all you can to help repair your mind and body.  The Thomas Recipe was a lifesaver in detoxing from methadone - along with Natural Calm, CalMag, a healthy diet and exercise along with plenty of water.  My fiance and I also ordered some injectable B-12 and it helped with energy as well.  It sounds simple but it makes a world of difference.
Best of luck and keep posting.

[gizzy32]

Welcome back, I remember you from before. I want to wish you luck and hope you do something different this time to stay clean. The w/ds are the easiest part for an addict, they go away. Stick around this time and keep getting support and hope you look into some type of aftercare this time to STAY clean. Good luck man.

P.S. May I ask what triggered this relapse?

[gnarly_1]

HEY dude just wanted to encourage you to hang in there and keep going with this thing
you got a couple of days yet so work on your attitude a positive attitude goes a long way
in doing this you got the right idea with the hot baths I took several a day when I detoxed
keep up the good work and keep posting for support we all want to see you make it
good luck and God bless....Gnarly  

[struggling_college_student]

Well it's morning time....last night was pretty rough!! I only caught like 15 min of sleep here and there:-( starting to get a little diarrhea too:-( oh well such is the price we addicts pay!  I've been taking a lot of hot baths.  For the past few hrs I have been watching intervention.....god it's amazing what we do to destroy ourselves.....I wish I could go to an inpatient detox!! That would be nice;-) well good luck everyone!!!

[jstntime]

Hi,

You're doing great,

It sounds like you have a good attitude about this and that is good, it helps tremendously.  I always found that the best thing for the anxiety and restlessness was a good book or movie or SOME sort of distraction.  Try and keep your mind busy so you aren't thinking about pills.  

Don't lie around and stare at the clock!!!  You know it will get better, just keep hanging in there until it does.

Wishing you the best and looking forward to you getting through this!!!

bob

[struggling_college_student]

Thanks everyone for the support.....I'm determined to do this but geez I hate these feelings of anxiety, hot then cold, restlessness, and NO SLEEP!!! I got maybe a total of 2 hrs since last night....the hot baths have been helping along with sum benadryl and vitamin supps.  I just wish I could fast forward thru this!! Haha yea right!