Here.....Again!!

[struggling_college_student]

So after about another year and a half of using I finally hit the bottom......again....this time I got all the way up to 240mg or so of oxy a day plus any other meds I could get.  I'm on day 1 right now and feel like caca....why did I do this to myself yet again?? Wasn't the last time reason enough to stay sober?? I just hate that I'm back here and do the whole WD thing and ugghhhh.....but this site always helped during my wd periods.....good luck everyone

[rooster002]

Hey Bro. I'm back after 9 months of being clean. I wasnt sober but I wasnt using. I just finished day 3  and am working on 5 interupted hrs of sleep the last 2 and half days. Looking back on the past 7 months since my relapse I now know that it was gonna happen just a matter of when. I stopped going to meetings after about 5 weeks and stopped hanging out with my 1 sober friend who brought me to my 1st meeting. I'm shocked I lasted aslong as I did. Hang in there as you know it gets easier and being clean from those OCs feels great.  I not only put my supportive family thru this but my Wife and 2 kids.  Its those long sleepless nights during WD that when we reflect on how we screwed the people who love us that should stick with us and fight each day to not use. Cause we have a nasty disease thats itching to come out.   Good Luck

[sky_is_the_limit]

Don't feel bad man this is my second time back and it makes me feel like an idiot for going right back to pills. I have totallly seperated myself from anyone who even associates with them thangs. Hang in there bro. YOU CAN DO IT. Just don't go back to them OC's. THEY ARE EVIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[struggling_college_student]

Ufggghhh I just want to close my eyes and lay still for a min or two but the wds won't let me!! I really hope this passes soon!! If I remember right it took me til about the end of day 4 to start seeing a dramatic improvement.....I can't wait to get there!!!

[Punkinhead75]

Good job on the 24hrs.  The question is what are you going to do different this time?  There are places to go to learn how to live a clean lifestyle.  Are you willing to put the effort in?  Wishing you the best of luck!!!

[dominosarah]

Using is just a symptom of this addiction.  I would really check into some sort of recovery care.  You dont have to keep doing this to yourself.  There is help out there but you have to be the one to reach out.....

Congrats on 24 hrs!!  Keep it going now.  Glad to hear you have a supportive family too.  That is always a big help......sara

[struggling_college_student]

Yay I made it to 24 hrs without a pill.....will except for any narcotics I guess!!! Lol anyway I've just been laying around and when I get the hot flashes i just go outside where it's pretty chilly....then I come back in when I'm cold and snuggle under a blanket.  It's working out ok so far.....my mom brought me some herbs and vitamins to help me relax......thank god I have a supportive family....I just hate when I have to put them thru this....keep positive every and I'll try and do the same