Here.....Again!!

[struggling_college_student]

So after about another year and a half of using I finally hit the bottom......again....this time I got all the way up to 240mg or so of oxy a day plus any other meds I could get.  I'm on day 1 right now and feel like caca....why did I do this to myself yet again?? Wasn't the last time reason enough to stay sober?? I just hate that I'm back here and do the whole WD thing and ugghhhh.....but this site always helped during my wd periods.....good luck everyone

[struggling_college_student]

Oh btw for sum reason I was at the store gettin cigs today and I got this idea in my head that maybe drinking sum liquor will help me sleep....so I buy sum brandy and coke...walk hm get inside and make a drink....took 2 sips and then was like what am I doing this is so dangerous!! If I got drink I would prolly use...so I instantly poured the drink and the rest of the brandy down the toilet!! Geez addicts minds work in such mysterious ways:-(

[struggling_college_student]

So I'm feeling ok right now but just really wishing I could get at least 45min-1hr of sleep!! I really want to sleep for like 24 hrs straight!! Lol yea right!! Well in 2nd 15 min I'll be at 72 hrs without of pill!!

[struggling_college_student]

Hey everyone!! Just a little update....almost thru day 3!! Yippee....not feeling to bad physically except for the insane lack of sleep!! 1 hr since I started wds! I'm so lookin forward to getting clean and STAYING clean this time!  I hope every is well.....good luck and god bless!! Jeff

[gnarly_1]

Hey....dude just roll up on the couch with some soft music playing and lay there with your eyes closed...you can go into deep rest....its not sleep but its probably the closest thing your going to get for the next few days.............Gnarly

[struggling_college_student]

Yay!!! Made it past 48 hrs!  Still haven't slept at all but a hot shower helps me to be able to lay down and close my eyes for a lil bit

[struggling_college_student]

Yeah these pills have a way of getting a hold of us....I took 1 pill thinking it wouldn't hurt but yea now here I am again!!! Hey gizzie about aftercare.....I'm actually moving to Georgia on the 20 of this month....I just have too many connections around here and feel moving to a new area will def help!! I have recommited my life to Christ and fully intend to seek help through a church in that area:-( I'm so sad but excited at the same time for this move