I never learn

[mamaamw]

I went to the dr last Monday. Got 90 hydrocodones and they're all gone. Already. Why do I allow them to give me the meds? Why am I not strong enough to say no?

[ricart70]

You have to really want to quit .  What is going on with the benzos ?  Are you going to run out of those too ?  I thought Your doctor dismissed you ??  I am confused.     Hang in there

[marycarmel]

It's not a matter of being strong enough.  Addiction isn't about strength, morality or anything else.  For most addicts, the disease is much bigger than them.  That's why you'll hear the same advice from the people who have successfully quit their DOC ... it's aftercare.  I am dependent versus addicted so I can't speak to the mental aspect of what you have to deal with but I've lived with addiction my whole life with uncles, my ex-husband and a couple of friends.  I've gone to AlAnon and even AA when my then husband wanted me to go.  The program works if you work it.  (I'm not sure if I've followed your story or someone with a similar screen name.)

So you've gone through your script.  Now what?  What's your plan?