Angie where are you....you really need to talk about this.....
Hey Angie....reading all this is breaking my heart...you have worked so long and so hard to get where your at now that drink brought you down to using again...as your friend Angie
im telling you only you can stop this...please let this last time be a learning lesson for you
it started out as a drink after work....it only took a few nights of doing this to cause you to relapse back to the pills...this is not going to go away on its own...you have to make the choice to stop it where its at wile you still can....we all know this dosent get better with time unless we change...you have the choice to say no when someone asks you if you want to go out....your at a cross roads here if you choose the wrong path God only knows where its going to take you and we both know you dont want to go there...reach out for help b/4 you make the decision to go out...you have life lines use them...dont throw away everything you have worked for a good time...there are other ways to have fun...make time to get to a meeting Angie...it will help get you back on track..im your friend you can always message me im behind you 100% and know you can do this
make the changes starting today...dust yourself off pick yourself up and just start over with a fresh outlook and a solid plan this time...its never to late..your friend Mark
I have been there before so I am not the one to judge, I just wanted to say that I am rooting for you. One thing that helped me was this day dream of seeing myself as a helpless little boy trapped in a vicious bubble and although everyone around was screaming, crying and hoping the save the little boy, the only person that could burst the bubble and get him out was me. Whenever, I would think of that dream, I would also think of The Antwone Fisher Story, when they ask, "Who is going to cry for the little boy?" and tears would flow down my face, because I knew that it was me who would have to go and do it.
I hope you realize that there is beautiful little girl named Ang in a bubble that desperately needs you to work hard at saving her.....I wish you the best.
yes, dear... it is a good sign...we harm ourselves in many ways for a lack of selfsteem... it takes some time building up the selfsteem and the first step is to stop harming our life, our health.... what i would like you to understand is that you don't need to have this selfsteem at its highest peak to be able to break this vicious cycle....we start with one little step here, another one there....because what we just know is that we don't want hurting ourselves any more....
don't overthink a lot now... just stop the behaviour that is hurting you the most right now, tell yourself that you won't go out. don't think more about the fun and take this step now... :) don't say you can't.... say that YOU CAN :)
It is great that you are looking for the reasons why you choose to numb and harm yourself. And it is also wonderful that you are talking about it. The problem is we are not psychiatrists here or addiction counselors and that is why we suggest that you go and start your counseling and dive in.
You had mentioned that because of your work schedule you cannot go see him until the 30th. Do you think that is an excuse? You found plenty of time to party, now find the time to get well.
We're pulling for you.
I think the thing 4 me is I feel as if I don't deserve good things.. When I start getting good things I will be honest here, I will do what it takes to lose that thing, person, place, etc cause I dont feel I am worthy enough to have these things. It all comes fromthe verbal and physical abuse I suffered from an abusive ex from 7 years ago. Is this a good sign? Maybe I'm starting to see what I'm escaping from?