New here, help please!

[Back_2_life]

I have been addicted to oxycontin for 3 yrs. I snort about 140 mgs a day. I quit before cold turkey. Felt like I was dying and even fainted at one point. I lasted about a month but couldn't stand the depression. I've always suffered from depression and anxiety but this was really bad. I relapsed and now I'm thinking about using methadone to get off these things and maybe by doing a taper off methadone the depression won't be as severe.. I hope. I could never taper off oxy but feel I can off methadone. I get no high from methadone (I have several methadone pills stashed for when I run out of oxy) so I think I could use it short term to get off oxys. Has anyone tried this? I'm afraid to go ct again, I don think my body can physically handle it and I think this might be the best option to finally get off pills. I am the mother to two beautiful kids and feel so much shame from what I've become. I really hate myself and if not for my kids I think I'd just kill myself rather then go through this living hell anymore. I'm just so sick of it. I don't even get much of a buzz of the stupid things despite the large amounts I do. I get a prescription for my back pain but of course that's gone in a few days and I have spent so much money it's sickening. I just want to be free from them but the mental hell that awaits really is discouraging me from breaking free but I know I have to try. I really hope I can lessen the depression by tapering off methadone as opposed to ct. Please give me some advice. I feel like such a hopeless case.

[donnakebabe]

thats the thing you cant just go on methadone for a few weeks and coming off of it is a slow process. I am currently coming off of it at 2.5mg every week. It is gonna take me 30 weeks to *** down off 70ml. i am very impatient aswell and just want it done. Have u thought about Subutex or Suboxone. They are really good , thats wat i will be going on once i come down to 20ml. But trust me u will be on Methadone probably a minimum of a year. Do research, i wish i never went on it but i was popping min of 60 pills aday. panadeine forte was my drug of choice, tramadol and oxycontin. since i have got my depression under control i am alot more determined and have stopped popping pills. talk to ur doc about ur depression. good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[btb009]

The clinic i another addiction hands down. I know no one who has gone and off in any sort of reasonable time. I'm talkin yrs an yrs. I f u did it wow cause i was done with **** and stuck at the clinic for 5yrs. U gotta really wanna quit

[btb009]

I had a bad prob first with vics and percs ect. do to two knee surgeries. Then of course needed more cause i fell in love with pills, the feeling I got was like no other better than sex. Then I'm hooked on oxy, now ten yrs later bad mistake also 4 yrs of the clinic was horrible traded one for the other cause they do try and keep u on long as poss. Fact!!! My main iss now is when I am off the **** my armpits sweat none stop and it bugs the **** out of me. nothing works???????

[alex1904]

How u doing bro I seen ur email online I jst wanted some advice im 21 and been on opiates for 2 years then whem I relized I couldnt kck the pills I moved to methadone bad mistake I was on that for about 4 months and ut seemed like they were just wanting to give me more mgs of methadone and I wanted tk stop but couldnt after all kinds if ups and downs I turned to a rehab out in mexico we there is no in and out ******** ur in and u staying thete with no kinds of meds to help u through the wds I ended up not sleeping for about 35 day and had the worst goosbuumps pain and was not given any nitritonal food since it was mexico and the cost is 169 amonth I did 2 months of prison style rehab made me relize what I had and have I came out early since the program was 4 six months everything seemed ok since the worst part was over or I had thought. I stared smoking weed to get over the erge to do opiates 3 weeks from beign back and I found myself at the pill conect again went on a 3week binge and now I startd the wd prosses again which is not too bad ..but in dont wanna keep beign an addict and I havnt gone to any groups yet what should I do I feel there is no sence in like inless in on something

[sugarchris]

If I didn't get on methadone I would be dead. Please don't advise people not to get on methadone when the alternative is to spend hundreds of dollars buying illegal drugs or someone elses prescription and NEGLECTING TO LOOK AFTER YOUR CHILDREN / LIFE BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO BUSY WORRYING THAT YOU WILL BE SICK...methadone takes that scared feeling away, so you can get a job, take your kids on a trip and quit being a junkie.
This is my experience and I was told NEVER get on methadone. If I had done it sooner I probably wouldn't have lost my son, my house, my car, my job and my self respect. All if which I now have, thanks to.methadone.

[oxyprincess]

I am in the sme situation. I am afraid of wd and i have severe depression. I ws on depression meds for a while, but those are crap compared to the roxy 30s im on now. As for your question about the methadone, i cannot speak from personal experience of using that drug. However, i do know some people that got on it to get off painkillers, and they are twice as addicted to the methadone than they ever were to painpills. And they arent the same people they used to be. It has really messed with their heads. Just know you are not alone. If you really want to beat this, i have faith that you can. I will pray for you, and god bless...