New here, help please!

[Back_2_life]

I have been addicted to oxycontin for 3 yrs. I snort about 140 mgs a day. I quit before cold turkey. Felt like I was dying and even fainted at one point. I lasted about a month but couldn't stand the depression. I've always suffered from depression and anxiety but this was really bad. I relapsed and now I'm thinking about using methadone to get off these things and maybe by doing a taper off methadone the depression won't be as severe.. I hope. I could never taper off oxy but feel I can off methadone. I get no high from methadone (I have several methadone pills stashed for when I run out of oxy) so I think I could use it short term to get off oxys. Has anyone tried this? I'm afraid to go ct again, I don think my body can physically handle it and I think this might be the best option to finally get off pills. I am the mother to two beautiful kids and feel so much shame from what I've become. I really hate myself and if not for my kids I think I'd just kill myself rather then go through this living hell anymore. I'm just so sick of it. I don't even get much of a buzz of the stupid things despite the large amounts I do. I get a prescription for my back pain but of course that's gone in a few days and I have spent so much money it's sickening. I just want to be free from them but the mental hell that awaits really is discouraging me from breaking free but I know I have to try. I really hope I can lessen the depression by tapering off methadone as opposed to ct. Please give me some advice. I feel like such a hopeless case.

[neenee707]

hi, i am 52 and in the same boat as you, been having peri-menopausal symtoms since the age of 33 , i use to take alcohol to help , but i couldnt handle the hang overs any more and switched to opiates, started with lil codeine 3 and now take oxycdone 15 and 20 ....im sick of being dependant on pills and it always comes back , the nite sweats, mood chanches, even had a nervous break down 3 yrs ago...that was worse than 10 child births....i prolly cant help ya much accept misery loves company and offer you my friend ship, i too am new here....good luck

[mary577]

You posted on an old thread and you need to start a new thread.   Go to the first page where it says Post a Question.   You will get more replies.  Yes, many of us are in that age frame and situation and even older....you will have a lot of support.

[MidLifeLoner]

Hi, I am new to this forum and not sure if I have posted in the correct place but I could really use some support.
Long story short, on pain medication for legitimate reasons then menopause, empty nest and hormones hit. The pills seemed to mask my feelings now I've really gotten myself in a pickle. Is there anyone around 50 out there that can identify with anything I've said?

[jonezzz]

Keep your self occupied. I was a heroin addicted for 5 years It took 15 days at the clinic. I was doing 3 gram of dope in a day! YOUCANDOANYTHING!!!

[jonezzz]

Keep your self occupied. I was a heroin addicted for 5 years It took 15 days at the clinic. I was doing 3 gram of dope in a day! YOUCANDOANYTHING!!!

[Bamafanatic]

I found a good Suboxone program where i live and over a period of a year I reduced my dosage to 0.5mg, stayed on that two months and then jumped off with the help of Clonidine and Valium.  Im on day 10 and it gets better everyday.