Oxycontin WD - 4th day-helpme

[mego579]

Im barely able to type right now.  I went on a trip to a remote house boat with freinds and discovered what WD really are. I'd been using oOxycontin up to 300 mg a day for about 2 years and while on the trip i thought it would be ok to break my 40 mg pills into 4ths and take them because i was running out with no chance of refill before the trip.  The WD started and the whole 4ths of a pill thing was out the window. They were gone before the first night and my freind had to confine me into a room of the house boat while they said i had seizures, screaming, begging to die, not sleeping in days until i was given Ketamine which is a drug i'd usually abused in the past and was familiar with but i'm not sure if it was a good idea or not becuase while in a K-hole i was able to stop the crazy leg shaking etc, but still felt everything jsut the same ( only being imobilized).  
Made it home, its day 4
my eyes are crazy dialeted still, my mind works but i cant communicate really yet without my voice shaking. i'm trying to eat ( the first night i puked like 30 times) but my stomach HURTS after. My skin is crawling.

I took the oxy in the first place because i have severe rhumetoid arthritis.
what do i do?
can i really ride this out here at home w/ my bf?(who was up for the whole time and is exhausted) - feeling better but thats not really saying much because i feel like HELL.
HELL!

how many days will this go on?
please

[sid3]

Your almost out of the worst part. Have your bf get the items listed in the thomas recipe, they really do help. To not take advantage of supplements that really work is absolutely nuts. You may not be able to get any of the benzos, but the other items are easy to find. Hang in there, another day and you should see some improvement

[ImGettingClean]

Physical WDs last about 3-5 days (on average)...some a little more, some a little less...depends on length of use, meds, etc...

I know you feel BAD right now, but it seems like u r doing better than the first few nights, right?

If thats the case, hang on and it'll be over soon..

Agree with Sid3, look at the Thomas Recipe...

WDs are HORRIBLE, but you WILL and CAN get through it...

Good luck, keep posting...

Nick

[mego579]

thank you so much, im crying now but im happy that people are sayin i''ll make it. i'd been trying to stop takin the damn pills for about 6 months unssuccesfuly but no that i'm almost that i feel like i do want them BUT i WILL NEVER take them again. my bf said 1 morepill and he's gone and he is my life. not only that but this is so horrible im not ever putting myself in this position again!
we are noteing the thomas recipe and contacting my mom to get them from GNC and bring it over. i was able to bath myself ( while my br finaly slept) and that was good because i was very dirty and smelly!

i just took my temp. and its normal. having rhumetoid scares me with at home detox bu if im without fever i figure im not sick.
the worst part was pretending i was ok at the airport yestruday to get home. 2 flights and a layover while with sunglass looking like a cancer patient( in hopes) to avoid anykind of trouble.

my skin is seriously craqling hot then cold and all the K i did is residual in me somehow it feels- as though my skin smells like it and all i can taste is it. i used to love K but now it joined me in helll and i'm not gunna do that again either!

im very scared but hopefull you're all right :) im going to lay down again becuase typing is very difficult.

[nascarfan2488]

You are almost there... It was around 6 days for me the last day I could actually tolerate it. I actually use this over the counter med for the restlessness called Restful Legs. It really really works. I got it at Walgreens.  Hang in there you will get through it. Your in my prayers!

[mego579]

next day is here and i feel the same BUT is subsides for like 5 minutes at a time. no squirts ( thank god) but its not a comfortable bathroom experience ( sorry so candid!)
enjoying the fall ( my time of the year) the goths we all love october - im happy this is my special month now even more so. octoboer 1st marks my day 1. im on day 7.

thankfully my boyfrind was able to take off work to care for me and get food etc.

still having some seriousl acid eyes + all the Ketamine i did during the initial first 3-4 days is still residual now. i'm a little concerned it wont ever stop ( i get a weird sensation because i used to abuse K in the past where my nerve endings feel like theyre going backwards.
anyone else outthere recreational psychadelic people too that might have help with that? i know that psycahdelics w/ fragile brain states can be dangerous but at the time i really did seem like a good idea.
in fact not remembering the first 4 days of hell is a luxury im sure not many will get.

right now my stomach and skin - oh god i wish theyd stop.
can't sleep- no valium avliable to me now ( i can't drive a car!)  so i slept about an hour - watching terrafying acid trips it seems of the food network.( vegitarian 14 years and throughout the whole WD process i remember only seeing human devouring strange meats-... why? its kinda freaking me out! in fact everything on tv is freaking me out. is that normal? to feel alot like your on acid?

at least i can type right? i really hope tmrw is better. i can do this.

[IBKleen]

I hope you hang in there. Trust me, it will and does get better. You have a lot of work ahead of you but it is doable.

Please, please stay clear of the Ketamine. How you got hold of that is scary and it more dangerous than the high doses of Oxy could ever be.

Be good to yourself during withdrawal and make plans for aftercare.

[mego579]

im  sure hoping its not cuz ive done alot of K and only cared for 1 overdoser who drank 2 viles stupidly.
i agree it was a stupid idea to take it though.

thank you so much. my plan as a good reminder to myself is a new tat that will tick the years of sobriety up in marks. sounds stupid but sometimes its good to have a big fat reminder in english on your arm FOREVER that reminds you what your goals really are!

the thomas recipe is helping the jitters alot.

i can def. see how this will be a difficult mind thing to overcome. i will count eachday as it passes as i see others do. it really helps actually. helps me feel like im overcoming a huge ladder one day at a time.

[jt808]

i like that tat idea keeps it as a reminder so eap after doing that u kno u can never relapse its permanitaly on ur body now!!! so good luck and stay strong...

[sportnut]

You can ride it out!
WD was tuff but I did it CT with help from this board.
Read my post "Back from 5th Rotator Cuff Surgery" and my previous posts.
Everyday is a victory and believe me you will need somethig down the road to manage pain and if you don't stop now nothing will work when you need it.
Hang in there.

[Ec131]

Hey There,

Hang in there!!! I was in the same boat you were in about a year ago. I was taking between 300-400 mg of Oxy's a day for (4) ruptured discs in my back and surgery to repair them, and then my doctor one day decided I was abusing the pills (you think) and stopped prescribing them to me and gave me Clonodine (if i spelled it right) to help with the withdrawals. Well they didn't help and I felt like DEATH for about 4-5 days. Each day after that got a little better. It is a tough road, but your on your way down the road already so just hang in there. It will get better and you will be so happy each day you feel a little better.

Take Care!!!!
Ec131

[mego579]

- update -

on a continuous acid trip it seems like with bouts of hellfire skin thats absolutly nuts. but i keep wanting to CLEAN - when i can stop writhing - i guess thats good - mabye taking psychadelics while w/d was a weird thing but it seems to reallly be effecting me today.
massive nerve ending craziess and acid eyes -
only i can't remember the last time i took acid and sat in a bath of fire :(

i hope tmrw is better

[mego579]

its almost 11pm, seriously the acid thing is getting stronger, i smoke perhaps its triggering it?

[dominosarah]

Are you drinking plenty of fluids?  Are you smoking cigarettes?

[mego579]

no, no cigs, and yes tons of vitamin waterm but now that you mention that i will grab another bottle!

[mego579]

its intense in my nerves ( skin ) and my vision is extremly reminisnt of acid. very very very similiar but increasing, is that normal? kinda hot still

[dominosarah]

I wouldnt think this would be normal but i could be wrong.  If your vision doesnt get any better i would have it checked out.  The smoke may be a contributing factor too.  I remember the eye thing from years ago but i didnt experience this when i went thru wd.  I do hope you know you are almost at the end of this and you are really doing great given all the things you have been thru.  There is light at the end of the tunnel so just keep hanging in there.  Drink your vitamin water.  Between not eating and living in the bathroom you need to keep replenising your body.  Stay strong and keep fighting.......sara

[liscamdave]

I've also never heard of seizures in oxy w.d. Your symptoms seem a little extreme to me. I would go to the hosp or call your family dr. Who was prescribing you that much Oxy? Call that dr. Unless you were getting it from someone else. I personally think you need a drs help. Unless the symptoms are subsiding. Good luck. The worst of it should be over, and it will get better and easier...

Lisa

[Tom1130]

You don't have seizures but the shaking becomes unstoppable at times if the dosage of OC's was high enough.  I can't imagine how hard it is to taper with OC, but it can be done.  You can not die from the withdrawals,  your stomach hurts because your body is not getting enough food and your hungry, but can't eat.... sometimes it's impossible to eat.  Try eating something sweet throughout the day.. Ex. Cinnamon Buns, Pie, Ice cream.  It's still hard to eat anything but forcing the sweet's helps a little bit.  Ketamine is dangerous as you know.  Clonidine as I am sure you know is a Blood pressure medication originally, Now prescribed to help alleviate minor withdrawal symptoms.  Not full blown withdrawals. And is supposed to be used in high dosages under supervision.  I am not trying to scare you, you can do this you have great support on here.  If you have any question's Private message me.  Im 27 days clean from a 400 mg per day addiction.    KEEP US POSTED ... YOU WILL GET THROUGH THESE DEMONS -Tom

[rsyski]

dude,what are you doing moderation you got to cut back slowly, you must know some dealers, buy what you need to come off slowly, what you went thru is for the dogs, I also , in a similar situation I POSTED a couple of minutes ago. It seems to be working for me, but what do I knowit is the 5th time i have tried this, but this feels right. Good luck and your not alone

[whitie]

formication is taking place, which could be the result of major wd's and probably the special "K" in the mix.

ketamine is an interesting read.........

[mego579]

i think i slept an hour or 2 but my eyes are dialated still and the acid hasnt subsided at all almost a little more in spurts? i want to stress though i DIDNT take any acid!

[mego579]

no i know ive read alll about K in the past, thats why im a lil bit concerned but pretty sure its also sweating out my system too right now - at this point i'm hoping for that

[mego579]

ok now ive read formication, that does sound like a distinct possibility - but one that is also overcome by waiting it out, sweating it out, hydrating vitamins etc just like im doing. i was on a trip once years ago that lasted at least 5 days so this will subside. it does go down actually at times when i'm calming after taking the restless legs stuff that disolves under you tongue.
and as for tapering ive been through way too much hell buddy to go find a dealer so thats a stupid suggestion sorry!
nope i'll be ok i've dealt with this same exact feeling frequently ( just not -not on drugs) so im going to assume its def. coming from the withdrawls, perhaps its my bodys way of dealing, going back on sensations its recognizes as the K and Oxy all flush out -
hell i heard this could take weeks.
i just need to keep a strong MIND - and know that it will subside -

[mego579]

perhaps its good i dont want sweets but keep making crazy vegan meals - then i'll feel a lil better and clean alot, its weird my body is craving vitamins - i just cant kick this K or acid feeling - weird and very HOT but not shaking or writhing now and gunna have a lil pasta and vitamin water and an epson bath and see what shakes off my skin -