day one

[mitches]

I had 1 pill left  yesterday around noon and that's the last of them...
Sooooo I'm on the couch freezing, trying to make myself get up & move but have no motivation! I've been taking hydro 10/325 for about 2 yrs now usually 5~8 per day.
Last night was probably the worst night of sleep I've ever had, I guess I'm here for support. I can't continue to live the way that I have!!! I'm a stay at home mother of three great kids & I feel terrible for doing this to them, myself & my husband.
My husband is very supportive, but being home all day alone has to be the hardest part of the w/d so far! Nobody knows about my problem, and I don't want to reach out to family and friends...

[Orion5611]

Thanks for coming here for support! I was addicted to hydro 10s also for many years. Today is day 4 for me. Don't worry, everyday gets better!! Take ibuprofen for pain and hot baths really helped with muscle aches. You're doing the right thing by quitting and once you get past the withdrawals, you will feel that a heavy burden has been lifted and you'll have a great feeling of accomplishment!

Stay strong and give your body time to detox. Drink lots of fluids and take some vitamins, bananas really helped me! I was very weak the first two days, but the third day was MUCH better. Keep your head up, you can do this : )

I'm rootin for ya.

[Orion5611]

I was addicted? Let me rephrase that . . . I AM addicted to hydrocodones!

[mitches]

Thanks for the support! This has to be the hardest thing I've ever done...childbirth was a piece of cake compared to this mess!
I am so looking forward to the day I wake up & I'm free! Ugh, how much longer?
Congrats on day 4! How do you feel?
There has to be something to look forward to...

[WDsRawful]

Mitches - you will get through this even though it seems like you won't.  Orion gave great advice.  Try Melatonin for sleep.  You can buy it at any drug store.  It truly does help.

Orion - I had to laugh at that.  We are always addicts, aren't we?  ugh

[mitches]

It just seems like the day is dragging by....
Thanks for the advice on the sleep problem that comes along with this.

[Orion5611]

Yes, it is the hardest thing I have ever been through also!!! For me, day 3 was SOOOO much better!! I'm feeling great today!! So get yourself through today and tomorrow and you should start feeling better. Just whatever you do, don't let your mind trick you into thinking "I can just get a few more to take the edge off" or "I can control it this time" because I have fallen into that trap too many times!!

This is about the 10th time I've tried to quit! So stay strong and know that it WILL pass, you WILL get through it!!! I'll be praying for you : ) I couldn't have done it without prayer!!

[mitches]

I've done that too. Just get a few more & make them last...HA!  I know now that I have been lying to myself for quite sometime now. I already want to run out and get just one so I can do "something", heck anything!
I can't let myself do it this time. I'm determined to be a better mother & wife. Ya know, last year was so bad I can honestly say that christmas is a big blur....I want to remember every second with my kids!
Remind me of that tomorrow... Lord knows I'm going to need to hear it.

[Orion5611]

Ok I will! I think we will always want to get just one for the energy. But we just have to remember why we quit and what we have to go through to get over the withdrawals!!

I know that I don't EVER want to go through this again! When you want to get more, remember what you are going through today. That is what is keeping me from getting more.

Don't worry, this will pass! Our families are worth it!

[mitches]

Thanks for being there for me & everyone else on this site :)
Sure makes me feel like there's a light somewhere at the end of this tunnel!
I'm really trying hard to stay optimistic.... Isn't as easy as I thought. Lol

[Orion5611]

There is definately light at the end of the tunnel!!
Don't let the addiction win again. If you need someone to talk to, I'll be here, ok?
: ) You'll be feeling better before you know it! A lot of it is psychological too, remember that! Everything is going to be ok.

[mitches]

You are such a blessing to me right now :)
Wouldn't it be nice if we could just sleep for 3 or 4 days?!?

[Orion5611]

Awww : ) Oh yes!! It would be nice if we could just sleep through it!
But I think God wants us to go through the withdrawals so we won't want to start taking them again! It's also a wakeup call to help us turn to Him for help ; )

No worries, it will pass <3

[WDsRawful]

I tried like 10 times to stop and went through cold turkey everytime and never made it past 9 days.  Here I am, almost a month clean.  I didn't think I could do it, especially on days 2 and 3, but I made it and so will you.  It truly does get better.

[mitches]

Well technically I am now 26 hours clean!  Day one down, the rest of my life to go!
Thank you both for the encouragement, I really need it right now.
I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!!!
What's 4 or 5 days of hell compared to what I have already done to myself & my family right??
I'm worried about my kids coming home from school... I don't want to "bite heads off"

[Orion5611]

LOL
I know how you feel hun. Try not to take it out on your kids : )
I had to put effort in not blowing up too!! I have a 15 year old son. Teenagers . . . . . . . .

[BornofOsiris]

Congrats on wanting to get clean woohoo! =) you sure did come to the right place to get help. Take a peak to the right of the page and you will see the Thomas receipt and the amino acids protocol, give them a look, they help the w/d's calm down, now they dont stop them just tone them down a bit. Your almost out of the w/d land, but then comes the whole "mental" part....this is the part that most people cave on, so my suggestion go to NA ASAP, it really helps and you get tons of support from people who have been there done that, and have a significant amount of clean time, I mean if someone told you that a program helped them stay clean for years, dont you at least want to try it out? I know for me NA helps me vent, get educated and most important of all gives me hope. Well i hope everything goes well and remember, we never have to use again! Much love

Dallas

[mitches]

Dallas~ this is an amazing site for support! I never expected to get any responses.
I took a look at the Thomas recipe, I will give anything a try at this point.
Congrats on staying clean! I do have plans for NA, a friend of mine attends a meeting everyday & I plan on joining him. It does seem to help!

[Orion5611]

Hope you're feeling okay!

[googzy]

Sup mitches.... Don't take anymore... I'm on day 5 clean.... Trying to get clean forever!!

[mitches]

The really rough part has set in. Headache, legs hurt, but I'd say the headache right now is the worst!   I feel tired but can't sleep :~(
I sent the kids outside to play for a while so I can regroup. Told them I was sick with the flu or something... Trying not to snap at them.
I wanna just scream tho! Why did I do this to myself?  
If I make it through this I will NEVER touch another pill as long as I live!  

[Gettingcleanagain1221]

This place is great. I always lurked before but now I am posting. They are right about the mental part being the worst after the initial w/d. Keep coming here as you go down this road. Drugs will bite you in the butt when you are free if you don't stay on top of your addiction by getting some sort of after care. Keep going bc life is ten times better when you are free!!!!! I think that Dallas commented once about the money saved and he is right. I'm buying something for myself but I am also going to purcahse a large item for my wife. After two months bc she has always been a saint.  Peace. Gettn clean...

[mitches]

I got a few ambien, so maybe I will sleep tonight!   Looking forward to bedtime now.

[Orion5611]

Keep your head up. You're gonna make it! Not IF you get thru this, WHEN you get thru this! I'm praying for you! Stay strong. You'll feel better tomorrow!

[mitches]

I know I WILL get thru this! I took motrin & it seems to have helped a little. The headache is still excruciating| but just a. Few more days of this!  Almost 2 days down!