pleaseee help beat my oxy addiction .I need ur support

[wai92]

Hi I came on this site, looking to beat my oxy addiction. I just turned 20years old last month. I been snorting up to 8 to 12  oxy20ss for the last 6 months,160mg-240mg per day ( been snorting on and off since 2010)  I bought it from the street, I wasted ALMOST 20GRANDS over the last a year or so.  It has taken over my personal life and it had destroy my family also. I was a very happy person before this, I never thought I be hooked on this $hit. I bought my first car when I was 16 years old and had a very loving family. I was always the group leader in my crew growing up, I had lot of friends in highschool and was one of the cooler guys in the school, i would say. But EVERYTHING HAD CHANGED. I no longer talks to my dad anymore, and my mom is begging me to quit everyday. I cant keep seeing she cries over her drug addictioned son, ME. I droped out of college cuz I no longer can go into class withdrawaling cuz I couldnt found any the night before, I lost my job over me calling 7 sick days in a 25 day spams cuz of the withdrawal. I m no longer chasing the dragon , I just want my old life back, I want my family back. I dont want to keep on living this life style. I just snorted the last oxy I had and PLANNING TO GO COLD TURCKEY. LET ME KNOW IF U SHARES THE SAME OR PAST EXPERENICE DEAL WITH THIS. THANKS YOU

[Nighthawk61]

Congrats on the decision to stop the merry go round. Your doing the right thing for yourself and your wonderful family.  Soon , all this will be in the past, you've got a "virus" just let it run it's course and don't worry too much about the negatives, it's not life threatening and you will forget it and start living in the present soon enough. I'm worried about your dealers, your going to have to have an aftercare program for yourself, NA, to help deal with your triggers.  

Here's the Vancouver NA hotline, might help you to bond before you're done with detox  604 873 1018, 1 866 683 6819.

Best of luck Bro,

Liz

[quitinoxys]

Do you have a swimming pool or somewhere you can juump in and cool off? I also found that taking a cool shower helps. Hang in there your doing great---Rick

[wai92]

hey thanks a lot rick, good for u able to get off for 2 and half, do u know if there is anything i can do to help with the sweat? thank you

[quitinoxys]

Hello and welcome to the forum, it is great that you want to get your life back free of the evil oxy. You sound like a mature and responsible young man. I started taking oxys about ten years ago due to a severe spinal injury. I started out on a low dose and of course I built up a tolerence and had to take more and more.....well you know you've been there. Before I went C/T I was up to 240 mg oxy/day with another 60 mg percs/day. If your counting thats 300 mg oxycodone a day. During this time I lost interest in everything I loved to do and just sat around in a vegitataive state. Everyone around me was excusing this (enabling me) because of my injuries. One day I found my wife sitting in a room crying and I asked what was wrong she replied "I lost the man I used to know" I asked what do you mean she replied "I know you have pain but those drugs are taking your and my life away" I sat down and thought about what she had told me and actually GOT MAD. After that day I decided to co cold turkey and get off of the terrible drugs. I have now been clean off oxys for over 2 1/2 years.

So with all that said, I understand the pain your Mom and you are going through. The best solution for you at this point is to just quit and go C/T. You are young enough to get your life back on track and get yourself back into school. Look right now you realize you had mad a mistake, and that takes alot of courage to admit that. You can change the course of your life so just go for it.

You mentioned in a previos post that you checked into the Thomas Recipe, it helped me immensley through my w/d. I am not going to sugar coat it for you w/d is a week of feeling like crap. You just need to tell yourself that I will be OK not feeling OK for a while. The w/d process takes about 5-7 days and then the head games start. But lets not get into that now just go for the detox and get over that. I am here if you need to talk, rant, yell,curse or whatever you need to do. Like I said I have been there and done that. If you want you can PM me anytime, I am in your corner and I am praying for you so lets just getter done. God Bless---Rick    

[wai92]

hey thank you for ur advices and supports, I cant believe there is so many ppl out there went through or going to through it, I really grateful I got some supports and advices from good heart ppls on this site. I will not giving up this time, I know tonight is going to be tough bt i will make it through it .

[selfinduced]

You both have the perfect attitude. Your doing the best thing you could possibly do. College is tough, so is disappointing your parents. If you continue though it just gets worse and you could be 50 like many of us and be disappointing your kids. Right now the emotional and depression is hitting, just know this will improve in a few days and you'll wonder what all the tears were about. Hydrate, eat healthy, talk a good multivitiam.  (seriously the vitamins are huge). Take it hour by hour......