scared to death...

[mommy2be25]

I'm so scared right now... I've messed up really bad! I've called in my own scripts and this time they cancelled it and didn't fill it. I know they will be calling the Dr tomorrow and it will all be over! What will happen to me? What might they do? I'm the mother of a 17month old precious baby boy and he deserves so much more than this! I feel like if I just end it all then it will save him and my family a lot of trauma!

[mommy2be25]

I'm sure they will press charges or whatever the worst is that they can do! They fired me for theft, which wasn't entirely true, back in january. So, I'm sure they have no interest in working with me. I wonder if I was to speak to the dr himself if he would help me? I just can't see it being that easy... plus, is it really up to him at this point?

[scoenen]

I really think you should consider talking to your husband.  The first stage of getting clean is to come clean with the people who love and care for you.  Think about it.  

[mommy2be25]

Ive been down this road before, not the illegal part, but being addicted with a legit script and I came clean to him before. Im sure this time will end in divorce and with all this going on he will take my son... I will have no reason left for living anyway

[mommy2be25]

I want to tell him SO BAD... I need him to be here for me right now, but I just know he will leave. We are already loosing everything we have, he just lost his job so we have no income now. We are losing our home and moving in with his parents... He won't be so understanding...

[wishful1]

Ok just relax, think about your daughter, would you want her to grow up without you just because you were weak about your addiction and didnt get help? U need to get help. U messed up,everyone makes mistakes, go to a inpatient rehab to show u are serious about this. I am not sure the consequences of what you have done but im pretty sure its bad, but that is why i am asking if there is proof...how long have u been picking them up and calling them in? that could be the proof right there, how do you think they found out? Whatever you do, dont do anything stupid. Ur life is too valuable to loose. U can do this....

[scoenen]

We are here.  Talk to us.  You are not alone.  I have not been it that situation but I think we have all done things to get our drugs that we are not proud of, its just some of us got lucky.