to hell and on my way back

[BeyondScrewed]

Ill keep this short because I'm sure many of u doubt anything I say, with good reason. Most of you probably think I'm dead. And frankly, after these last 2 months I should be. How I am still alive, employed, and somehow landed a wonderful and smokin hot new girl is beyond me. I have a dr appt in 2 wdeks to beg for help. I went from simply abusing oxy, to speedballing 2-4 bags of rock mixed with the oxy and a gram of H. God must really want me around for a bit longer and I cam no longer ignore this fact. You will be hearing from me again soon. Only good things from now on.

[ImDONENoMore]

I will say it again.  I'm glad you came back.  Let us know what we can do to help.  I think it's obvious that you already know what kind of trouble your addiction has brought to your life.  None of us are exempt from that.  We all made a ton of mistakes and the only thing that matters right now is that you are trying again.  And not one of us is in a position to judge.

I really am glad you're trying again.  And we'll be here :)

[Pat1956100]

Wow, I have been thinking about you and thanks so much for letting us know you are okay.  Please keep posting and I am glad you are going to the doctor.  It's a start.  Does your new girlfriend use at all?  

[clean_in_ks]

Glad to hear you are alive.....and yes....just the other day, buddycrunch and I were wondering about you.  He had a 46 yr old friend found dead in his truck this past week.....so we never know do we?
Be sure to let us know how it goes with the doctor and what you decide.

A lot of people are pulling for you.....concerned for you...and praying for you....more than you could ever imagine~

[ricart70]

Man could you try to drop the rock in the meantime at least.You don't need that.
         Keep that doctor appointment.  don't let it be a constant mirage appearing in the distance and then mysteriously disappearing as you near it.
Sounds like you got lots to live for and  god seems to change his mind alot and decide things rather senselessly so get help in human form soon.
keep checking in buddy

[Nursey7]

I am glad you are back on here posting. We all want the best for you!! It sounds like you need help before that appointment though. Keep us updated!

[BeyondScrewed]

I'm not proud. If that's how it sounded. Amazed? Yes. Proud? No

Yes, son in my life. And whefher you believe this or not, NEVER has he been put in harms way. Id prefer not to argue about it cause I'm sure you don't think that's possible, but I assure u it is

No, girlfriend does not use. I was upfront with her. But no. Which I thinl is a good thing.

The rock is gone. As is the H. Ive been able to do that before. Just like that at the drop if a hat. Just these f'ing pills......