Help Stopping Suboxone

[cleangimnow]

All,

Here I am again...been on suboxone for two years now at 6-8 mg a day. I do drink and take my script of Klonopin.  The klon is daily and drinking once or twice a week. I need help. I don't know what to do. Most people see me as this highly functional responsible person.  Married, kid, nice home, fancy job title, etc.  

I feel like its all a lie.  I'm just a loser inside who can't get it together. Suboxone is a powerful opiate that I am and I make a lot of important decisions.  Granted, I'm happy that I'm not chasing pills and having mood swings. However, I need help getting clean. My wife doesn't know about the sub because she would be so disappointed. I got back on it when I did bc I was chasing pills again at the time.

Please help!!!

[Dane74]

no need to self sabotage yourself!!  Your NOT a loser you have  disease, and its called addiction!  It sounds like you want rehab, and i think thats great, start your research and look into rehabs, i personally   had the privilege to go to a rehab and i think it saved me for sure!!!!  Now that doesn't mean you don't have to do the work.   Start your google search and contact some rehabs that interest you, as for your work, its mental health, no need to terminate your job.  Owning up to yourself is taking ownership, your family will be proud that you are taking action and reclaiming your life back! reaching out for help is so very difficult, you and your family is worth it!!!  Call your insurance company and see what they cover regarding mental health and rehabs.  You are doing great thus far and recognizing you have a problem and admitting you need help, good for you, so now follow through.  

[atthebeach]

Sarah is usually on later in the evening.

[atthebeach]

Hun you aren't a loser. You are an addict and turn to drugs to deal with the stress of life, job, family, because someone looked at you crooked,etc....
I am sorry the therapist canceled.
When do you see the suboxone doctor again?
Please don't drink anymore.
Keep the faith.

[cleangimnow]

Where is Sara these days?

[cleangimnow]

I'm drunk now and ashamed of what I am. My daughter needs me to help with homework. I answer emails and act like I'm a functional CEO. I'm a loser deep down. Jobs and socioeconomic status don't matter. I need help. How do I do this?

I feel like quitting my job to go to rehab would let everyone down including my family.

[Dane74]

addiction does not discriminate,  it looks like CEO's, doctors, cops, and homeless, its a disease.  It sounds like you are a "high functioning addict" as was i when i was in active addiction.  It catches up to us and before you  ya know it,  you no longer have control over it!  I was super women on pills, worked out and was in great shape, kicked butt at all i did, or so i thought.  I wouldn't advise you to quite your job, but if you have the opportunity to go to rehab i would say heck YES, and go.  Rehab is not always the answer but it sure helps, it's up to you to make the choice to turn your life around.  You have so much to offer, so i would start thinking of all your options regarding aftercare.  Listen to your gut and for sure stop the booze.  Good luck to you