Help Stopping Suboxone

[cleangimnow]

All,

Here I am again...been on suboxone for two years now at 6-8 mg a day. I do drink and take my script of Klonopin.  The klon is daily and drinking once or twice a week. I need help. I don't know what to do. Most people see me as this highly functional responsible person.  Married, kid, nice home, fancy job title, etc.  

I feel like its all a lie.  I'm just a loser inside who can't get it together. Suboxone is a powerful opiate that I am and I make a lot of important decisions.  Granted, I'm happy that I'm not chasing pills and having mood swings. However, I need help getting clean. My wife doesn't know about the sub because she would be so disappointed. I got back on it when I did bc I was chasing pills again at the time.

Please help!!!

[cleangimnow]

Thanks for the encouraging words. It is hard to believe that I have gotten myself to this place again.  Disappointed. Why am I such a screw up?  

[61chevy]

Hey...  Don't b so hard on yourself.  Yeah...addiction blows n it's no picnic, but sounds like u have a wonderful family,  are a good provider, want to get clean, etc.  in just your opening remarks I could list lots of positive attributes.  First, start focusing on those things.  Stay focused on your reasons for wanting off the sub.

Second...  I too was a long time user of Sub.  Today is day 45 from my last dose so it can b done.  I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, it's a b***** but it can b done.  Yes...6-8 mill per day would b a tough jump to zero, tho I have heard of others that have done it.  This site won't let us give tapering advice so I would encourage u to talk to your sub dr about a taper plan n stick to it.  The cravings will come big time so u have to b absolutely determined.  I did taper down to .30 per day before my jump, but please talk with ur dr.  Took me six to eight months on a slow taper process but again, that was me.  Everyone is different.

I considered myself "in recovery" the day I started tapering.  I found some church support that I found crucial.  Many here are avid supporters of na/aa.  Find some face to face support group that u can feel comfortable with that suits your personality n take the aftercare seriously.  Read these posts n post yourself often.  Lots of amazingly caring, unselfish people on this forum.  Gives me lots of support.

I do want the best for u and as a long time sub user, I can assure you, u will like who u r off the medication much more.  Others will chime in soon.  Great first step in reaching out.  Congrats.

[cleangimnow]

I am going to the see a new therapist tomorrow. Can I taper and then be "off" to my family. I need help. I don't want to disappoint. Can someone suggest a taper plan? I feel like I'm going to be on sub for the rest of my life. I have been addicted to something since I was a teenager. I'm now in my early 30s. I just want to live a normal life. Now, I feel like I'm screwed. I guess that I am. I should say **** everything that I have. It's all a lie. I am a loser.

Why do I even bother?  I'll always be screwed up. I've been tryng for years.

[weaver71]

The anxiety and mental part of addiction are pretty powerful with sub detox, not something easy to hide. Sub is a long detox as well, so using the flu excuse really doesn't work either. What have you done to deal with your addiction, while on subs? Do you have aftercare, meetings, therapy, church, anything? I personally believe one needs to have local support to get and stay clean, especially from the long acting opioids like subs.