I think i am in big trouble and need help.

[dude22]

Hello, i was looking for some help online and i came across this site, please i implore you to give me your honest advice on my situation.

I am addicted to pain meds but not by choice, i have been taking percocets and oxicontin for 7 years now for pain due to back surgeries i have had done.

am up to 5 10mg perc a day and 2 20 mg oc a day, not bad to many that do it the normal way.
last year i started sorting my oc's because i was depressed and they made me happy, but then they suitched to op and now that cannot be done.

so i turn to percs and now i think i have a bigger problem than before.

ok here we go.
past 2-1/2 months my head started to burn and hurt, just the side of where i snorted the pills.
now my face feels a little numb aswell, nothing bad, but i am really scared.
it burns dab enough that the only thing that can stop the burning is more snorting of percs.

am afraid to tell my family doc cus i am also going to a pain clinic and i dont know if my family doctor will tell on me to the pain clinic.
i cant afford to do that since i cannot function without meds, my back is really in bad shape :(
so i still need the meds, i started taking them oraly, but the burning wouldt go away unless i snorted them, so i am stuck at snorting atm.

i was told that it could be nerve damage and that a pain management could take care of it, but i dont want to tell my pain clinic cus i am afraid of being labeled an addict and not being able to have my meds to be able to at least functions due to my bad back.

i hope i can get some answers to help guide me in the right direction.
again i dont mind taking them orally like am supposed to, but it burns if i dont.

please oh please help.

thank you very much.

Dude22

[dominosarah]

Way to go on no snorting!!  Keep it up!!

I want to go fishing.........

[vicki595]

Fishing???   I'm jealous!!!

You should feel better!!  Call the doctor tomorrow morning if you're still feeling the same as today!  Okay??    You might need a stronger antibiotic...

I'm proud of you for not snorting!!  I know it's hard!  But...you just can't!

[dude22]

another day goes by, another day i didnt snort woohoo lol
sadly i dont feel any better than yesterday, but i still feel better than when i was doing it.

:)

now i go fishing :D

[tgtiffany]

YAY!  That's so good!  Keep it up :)  

[dude22]

will do :)
its amazing how everything is starting to normalize as soon as i stopped, wish i knew better about this before :(
trust me i would have done so a long time a go if i did.

will keep you all posted, least i can do for the great help you all have provided :)

[dominosarah]

I am glad to hear you are feeling better.  Make sure you take all the anitbiotics.  Keep us posted~~~~sara