I think i am in big trouble and need help.

[dude22]

Hello, i was looking for some help online and i came across this site, please i implore you to give me your honest advice on my situation.

I am addicted to pain meds but not by choice, i have been taking percocets and oxicontin for 7 years now for pain due to back surgeries i have had done.

am up to 5 10mg perc a day and 2 20 mg oc a day, not bad to many that do it the normal way.
last year i started sorting my oc's because i was depressed and they made me happy, but then they suitched to op and now that cannot be done.

so i turn to percs and now i think i have a bigger problem than before.

ok here we go.
past 2-1/2 months my head started to burn and hurt, just the side of where i snorted the pills.
now my face feels a little numb aswell, nothing bad, but i am really scared.
it burns dab enough that the only thing that can stop the burning is more snorting of percs.

am afraid to tell my family doc cus i am also going to a pain clinic and i dont know if my family doctor will tell on me to the pain clinic.
i cant afford to do that since i cannot function without meds, my back is really in bad shape :(
so i still need the meds, i started taking them oraly, but the burning wouldt go away unless i snorted them, so i am stuck at snorting atm.

i was told that it could be nerve damage and that a pain management could take care of it, but i dont want to tell my pain clinic cus i am afraid of being labeled an addict and not being able to have my meds to be able to at least functions due to my bad back.

i hope i can get some answers to help guide me in the right direction.
again i dont mind taking them orally like am supposed to, but it burns if i dont.

please oh please help.

thank you very much.

Dude22

[sudie58]

thats really good that the numbness has gone, also the head pain, it was very lucky you didnt get an infection, as you say, the antibiotics wont hurt either, glad you kept us updated, please dont snort again!, god bless.

[dude22]

doing really good, nose still irritated but thats to be expected iguess, my facial numbness is gone, and my head pain and burning have toned down about 50% :)

so am hoping that with me stopping snorting and the antibiotics will help out a lot.

thanks.

[tgtiffany]

Wow!  You're English is pretty good though, never thought for a minute it wasn't your native one!  How are you doing today?  I hope well :)  I'm off to bed now as it's 1:52am and I'm wasting precious sleep time while the kiddos are sleeping haha ni-nite!

[vicki595]

Hey Dude!  You're doing great!!

[dude22]

I am puerto rican actually, can not cant :P lol
i grew up all over the place, from the island to the bronx to chicago to, and back and forth lol, tho i have been now where am at for 20 years.
i try to do ok with my writing, not perfect, but i least id like to think i can be understood :)

[tgtiffany]

Thanks!  And I would never have guessed English is not your native language!!  What is? If you don't mind me asking...